When I Did Speak

When I did speak

From the age of six until the age of sixteen
My life was like a scene, from a movie unreal
I had no visible scars
no external wounds...but the internal ones
refused to let me live...in peace

Everyday I fought a war
A war with myself...
I still feel his crispy hands
touching my secret place, and hears as my heart race
I couldn't cry nor scream
What I am telling you is not from a movie scene

I prayed for death arrive
not on him, the man that had caused me so much pain
But prayed for death on myself
Death never came for neither one of us
and each and everyday my like was getting worse

Until I spoke up...and when I did
I became free, physicly, emotionally, mentally
my life was unreal, I couldnt feel
Until I, the abusee spoke up

(c)2006 K. Bijoux Augustin